Life lately...
I am a hoarder but my life has been on a de-clutter mode since this new year.
Relinquishing unhealthy attachment to things - living and non-living has been hard for me though. Hanging and holding onto things gives me comfort, feels like I have it all "put together" securely; until recently when I started to feel a little weighed down by this habit. Its like being in your comfort zone, like that child who cannot let go of its favorite toy even after its broken, dirty and ragged because it gives him some strange kind of happiness.
Clutter of any kind slows you down, takes away your ability to think clearly, be it cluttered home, cluttered mailbox or a cluttered relationship. One has to prioritize and see what is truly meaningful and important and then let go of the rest.
I started to feel that in order to make way for something new in my life, in order to challenge the stagnancy, I needed to let go of the past. I mean, doesn't nature too teach you just that - how beautifully the trees shed their leaves in the autumn to make way for the spring.
Guess its also part of maturing in some ways, when life teaches you to differentiate between meaningful attachment and unnecessary chaos.
So this new year, every weekend am setting aside some time to clean up my life diligently, piece by piece - it has been extremely hard! At first I kept the discarded boxes aside thinking maybe I will need them later... but one fine day I just got up and put one of these boxes outside for my apartment house-keeping to take it away. Lo and behold, I found a strange sense of satisfaction and peace of mind. Like some part of me just freed itself up totally. And then there was no stopping - magazines, clothes, knick-knacks ... you name it, and I am either giving them in charity or throwing them out. Consciously distancing myself away from unnecessary drama of non-existent relationships has also been part of this de-cluttering exercise.
This has been a unique mind-body cleansing experience for me; and am listing down a few things that I observed in the process of doing something so "basic" -
I feel something good is on the anvil, waiting just around the corner... a happy state of mind!
Relinquishing unhealthy attachment to things - living and non-living has been hard for me though. Hanging and holding onto things gives me comfort, feels like I have it all "put together" securely; until recently when I started to feel a little weighed down by this habit. Its like being in your comfort zone, like that child who cannot let go of its favorite toy even after its broken, dirty and ragged because it gives him some strange kind of happiness.
Clutter of any kind slows you down, takes away your ability to think clearly, be it cluttered home, cluttered mailbox or a cluttered relationship. One has to prioritize and see what is truly meaningful and important and then let go of the rest.
I started to feel that in order to make way for something new in my life, in order to challenge the stagnancy, I needed to let go of the past. I mean, doesn't nature too teach you just that - how beautifully the trees shed their leaves in the autumn to make way for the spring.
Guess its also part of maturing in some ways, when life teaches you to differentiate between meaningful attachment and unnecessary chaos.
So this new year, every weekend am setting aside some time to clean up my life diligently, piece by piece - it has been extremely hard! At first I kept the discarded boxes aside thinking maybe I will need them later... but one fine day I just got up and put one of these boxes outside for my apartment house-keeping to take it away. Lo and behold, I found a strange sense of satisfaction and peace of mind. Like some part of me just freed itself up totally. And then there was no stopping - magazines, clothes, knick-knacks ... you name it, and I am either giving them in charity or throwing them out. Consciously distancing myself away from unnecessary drama of non-existent relationships has also been part of this de-cluttering exercise.This has been a unique mind-body cleansing experience for me; and am listing down a few things that I observed in the process of doing something so "basic" -
- I find myself moving freely around the positive energy flow that has come into my house; it no longer feels like an obstacle course, an affirmation that I will continue on with this activity.
- When I cleaned out drawers and old boxes, I also closed old chapters of my life by throwing away things that no longer meant anything or brought back painful or negative memories.
- Clarity and certainty has slowly started to creep into my day to day life - guess something that I need to consciously follow-through at work too.
I feel something good is on the anvil, waiting just around the corner... a happy state of mind!
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